Saturday, January 16, 2010
After what I've been this past few weeks, yes I've finally start to recuperate. I now finally started working, so there's something to be busy about and put into side the negative vibes. I haven't talked to my family for almost a week now just to give myself a space and a little time to forget about what my family is dealing as of the moment. I haven't spoken to my father since I left the Philippines, I haven't heard his side of story yet, I'm not planning to call him anytime soon 'coz I'm not yet ready to face the fact that he has a new family and he has chosen to live his remaining life with them. you can't blame me, I know that whatever he did, He is still and will always be my father, we can't change that. But we can not also force myself to accept things like this in a matter of a short period of time. It's just too painful. So as much as possible, I don't think about them. I try to forget them. For me this is the way how pain will go away. I'm just taking my time. Right now, I'm just trying to live my life...go with the flow. I know that the Lord will guide me.
Posted by Aisha at 2:04 AM